A lot of times during deployments I find myself saying to the Lord..."I can't handle this Lord", or "why me". You know the typical self-pitying talk. This isnt my first ride on the ferris wheel. This is my 4th, some might say a "pro" a "veteran" or something similar.
Truth is Im just a wife and a mom. Im not a hero, a saint, Im not a "trooper". Im just a prayer warrior. I pray constantly and part of me thinks that God allows me to continue going through these separations just to keep me on my knees.
Im not always the best prayer person I can be when my husband is here and things are going well. So my goal for my spiritual life is to get this prayer part down pat before he gets home. To find a moment in the day where its all about my time with the Lord.
I mean, I get up and read the word and say a quick "bless my life" everyday. But I want to be able to really pray, not out of need for something, but just because whenever I need Him, He is there. So I want to be there with Him even when things are going great!!
1 Corinthians 10:11-13 says
11 These things happened to them as examples and were written down as warnings for us, on whom the culmination of the ages has come. 12 So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! 13 No temptation[c] has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted[d] beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[e] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
I dont wanna fall.....
I can't imagine how hard it must be raising a family while your husband is deployed. You and all of our military families are in my daily prayers!
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